Alone.... :|

What is this?
This numbness taking over,
Oh hello. I would be your loneliness.
Just reminding you that you have no one by showing you all that someone else has.


But why?
Why must you do this to me?
It kills me knowing I have no one.
No James Dean.
No Audrey Hepburn.
Just emptiness.


Oh you silly girl,
Don't you understand.
Love and you just don't mix.
Never will.
Didn't your childhood show you that?

I yell as you tell me what I refuse to hear.
Cover my ears,
But I still hear you
Still see you.
The pain inside is too much.


Swelling to the point where I want to burst.
I see the rubber band and start to snap it on my wrist,
But it still doesn't help.

Tsk, tsk
You truly will do anything
Anything at all to ignore that your dead inside.
Shut up!
I don't want to hear you
Don't want to see you.


See, exactly what I mean.
You are dead inside.
Nothing.
Loveless.
Just standing there to observe what everyone else has,
That you want.

I tune you out in my own sea of drowning.
The tears finally free themselves,
As I realize the truth is there,
In the empty hollow
That remains empty til my James Dean saves me from the nothing I've become.